i love surprises.
everywhere i turned was a branch of life; a new beginning; a story untold.
it amazes me the way life grabs a hold of you, drags you into it’s core, and shapes you.
i can only wonder…
"The secret isn’t to find someone you love spending time with - I love spending time with a lot of people. The secret isn’t to find someone that you find attractive - I find a lot of people attractive for many different reasons. The secret isn’t to find someone who is nice - there are tons of nice people in the world. The secret is to find someone who wants exactly what you want. Someone who is ready to give you all they’ve got, and in turn be ready to accept all the love you have to give. The world is filled with people in relationship of “love you mores” & “I have to act mean so they will like me back” or “I am just not ready.” Please do not waste any more of your precious time. You are an amazing creature. You deserve to be loved until your insides melt. Don’t give up on all the things you want. When you meet the right person you will have zero doubt in your mind. Zero."
#the strugle is real
#leave the past behind
i thought i was dealing with my past until I woke up to realize I was in denial. So here I am.
Facing my fears.
Doing things I would never do.
Saying things that take a lot of strength and courage for someone as stubborn as I lol
The important thing for me right now, is to leave the past behind and not get too stuck in trying to figure out the answers, or fix anything that should be left broken…
I think my recent acts will eventually lead to peace, truth, and acceptance but for right now, it just fucking hurts.
Until I get all the pain behind me, I don’t think I can be successful.
It’s too much of a weight.
I think I was in denial about it, because I pushed it sooo far out of mind, but it’s always in the silent moments that you realize where your heart really is.