new job.
i start today at 4pm. i’m so excited!

adam and i have started a new beginning. i never in a million years thought I would ever see him again…but i guess if something’s meant to be, it will be. it’s so easy to go back to our old habits, and think our old thoughts. everyday is a struggle for balance and harmony :( as much as i want this to work, it’s hard not to think of how much he hurt me before. this time around will be different though. I plan on being alot more about me and getting my life together, before i can build a life with someone else. if he leaves again, atleast I will have myself this time. i’m getting too old to be losing myself wholeheartely in the midst of things. As long as we don’t talk serious talk, everything’s fine. It’s pretty much like starting from the beginning, because we’ve been dysfunctional since the start.

i woke up feeling very positive and rejuvenated…yet a purpose still undiscovered.

i want to paint this world beautiful again…who’s with me?

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